Zeeyqa, Fourteen, Malaysian.
I'm not your Barbie doll. Weird and random. Lovestruk idiot. Broken and fragile. A big mess. Mayday Parade and Simple Plan. Alternative rock. Vampire Diaries and The Orignals, Damon Salvatore and Niklaus Mikaelson. I don't believe in forever. When I fall, I fall hard. Giving too much fucks is my problem. Bruises, cuts and scars. I don't let you see the good in me. I love and I hate. Trying to live life to the fullest. This is who I am. Infinite x's and o's.
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Saturday, 2 June 2012 @ 19:59



Do you ever feel like you have NOBODY? Nobody to talk to. Nobody to trust. Nobody to share your feelings. Nobody at all. Do you? Even if you have a thousand of friends, you still feel like this. You think that everyone around you is just... pretending to like you when actually you know they hate you. It's like, they're faking a smile every time they see you. They don't like you. They don't want you. They don't like your existence. They wish they don't know you.

Lonely is not a feeling when you are alone. Lonely is a feeling when no one cares.

I feel like I am a nobody. Nobody cares about me. Nobody wants me. Nobody needs me. Sometimes, I wonder... Why am I exist in this world, again? To make people suffer from seeing my ugly face, attitude and personality? I guess so. But, I am still thankful to Allah for giving me a chance to live in this beautiful world that he made.

I have nobody and I am a nobody.

I don't know who my friends are. I'm not trying to get your attention or what but, I just feel that sometimes, I'm useless to my family and friends. I wonder if my family is happy to have a bitch like me and I wonder if my friends really want to be my friends. I don't think they do. If I were them, of course I hate me. Who would love me? Probably a fucking nobody.