Zeeyqa, Fourteen, Malaysian.
I'm not your Barbie doll. Weird and random. Lovestruk idiot. Broken and fragile. A big mess. Mayday Parade and Simple Plan. Alternative rock. Vampire Diaries and The Orignals, Damon Salvatore and Niklaus Mikaelson. I don't believe in forever. When I fall, I fall hard. Giving too much fucks is my problem. Bruises, cuts and scars. I don't let you see the good in me. I love and I hate. Trying to live life to the fullest. This is who I am. Infinite x's and o's.
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Sunday, 25 March 2012 @ 20:18

I'm not those kind of girly girls out there. I don't wear make-up. I don't wear high heels. I don't wear pretty clothes. I don't wear any of those things just to hide my flaws to attract people. I hate putting make-up on my face. I rather wear shoes than those 5 inches of high heels. I wear t-shirts and skinny jeans instead of dresses, blouses and skirts. I have a messy hair and I don't really give a damn about it.

I act all me when I'm with people. I don't care if people hate me for being me but at least I'm true and honest. I don't like to be someone else just to make people like me. I hate faking. Love me or hate me, either way I'm still on your mind.

Yes, most of my friends are guys and I talk to them a lot because I honestly think that guys are just way better than girls. Does that make me a slut? Well, fuck you. I hang out with them because they're straight up with me unlike those fake asshole bitches out there. Guy friends will be there for you through thick and thin. They don't like to start dramas and they're not drama queens. They don't waste their time gossiping and all those craps. Some of them may be dirty-minded but, hey, it's normal. At least, they mean every single word they say. I'm not saying guys are just so awesome and girls aren't. I'm talking about 'some' of the guys and girls.

I act all boyish and childish all the time. I even talk like them, sometimes. And, uh-huh I am always surrounded by guys. My closed friends in my class are guys and I only have 3 girl friends (closed with only one of them). I laugh a lot when I'm with them and I like it. And... that is one of the reasons why I always have a fight with my boyfriend about jealousy. k.

I don't like hanging out with girly girls too much. They care so much about the looks and they talk nonsense. They're overreacting. They think everyone likes them when actually most of the people hate them. Yes, I gotta admit. They are very pretty and that's why guys have crushes on them. They act so euw-ish in front of guys which makes me wanna puke all the time. Let me just say, 'control ayu' depan lelaki. I don't get it why do girls have to act all bitchy in front of boys. Desperate much to have a boyfriend? If you're having a relationship with a guy who only likes you because of your looks, trust me, your relationship won't last because he'll get bored of your looks one day. Haaa.

I may look slutty because I'm closed with guys. I know, I have a boyfriend who I love so much and I don't know if he loves me, too but deep down, I fucking love him. I don't post it on Twitter or Facebook about how I feel towards him because I am not an attention whore like you. Eh, terasa ka? I don't post craps on Facebook just so people will like them. I don't have a thousand likes every time I post a status on Facebook.

I think I'm done here. I'm tired and I need a rest. G'bye.