Zeeyqa, Fourteen, Malaysian.
I'm not your Barbie doll. Weird and random. Lovestruk idiot. Broken and fragile. A big mess. Mayday Parade and Simple Plan. Alternative rock. Vampire Diaries and The Orignals, Damon Salvatore and Niklaus Mikaelson. I don't believe in forever. When I fall, I fall hard. Giving too much fucks is my problem. Bruises, cuts and scars. I don't let you see the good in me. I love and I hate. Trying to live life to the fullest. This is who I am. Infinite x's and o's.
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A boring school holiday.
Friday, 1 June 2012 @ 23:42

It is the first day on the month of June 2012. Wow, time flies really fast. We are having our 2 weeks of semester break right now. I did not spend it really well. I wasted a lot of time sleeping, eating, playing games, surfing the Internet. I promised myself to study during these 2 weeks but, I, of course did not study at all. I didn't even touch any book. I admit, I'm a lazy-ass bitch who likes to waste times. Is there any medicine that can change the LAZINESS to HARDWORKING? If yes, please tell me so because I seriously need it right now. I need to stop being lazy, I need to study, I need to get good grades, I need to make my parents proud but, fuck... those 'I need's' are so hard to do.
I want someone to push me, not just... telling me to stop doing whatever stupid things I do and start to study. But, people always think I'm a grown up, I know what to do and not to do. They are wrong. I am still a kid, who thinks like a kid and who acts like a kid so I want someone to push me to do things so I can achieve something good. But, hey, I'm living in a generation where people only think about themselves because that's the only important person they care. Themselves.

Okay, so...
 I didn't really enjoy these holidays. I miss my boyfriend. I don't know where the hell he is now and damn, I just miss him so much. My friends are out of towns. They're currently enjoying their times right now while I'm stuck here in this small town that has no interesting places to go and shop. My mum planned to go to this island that I forgot its name next week but  my dad has to go to work so we can't go there. Sucks but, this is why I'm so proud of my dad. He's a hardworking unlike his daughter. He works so hard to get money so we all can have a good life. That's why he is always my hero and my favorite man. I love you, daddy! 

Since my dad has to work, I guess I am going to spend my holidays with my bed, phone and laptop. Oh, and FOOD, too. So, schoolmates, don't get shock when you see me getting fatter even though I know I already am fat.

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