Zeeyqa, Fourteen, Malaysian.
I'm not your Barbie doll. Weird and random. Lovestruk idiot. Broken and fragile. A big mess. Mayday Parade and Simple Plan. Alternative rock. Vampire Diaries and The Orignals, Damon Salvatore and Niklaus Mikaelson. I don't believe in forever. When I fall, I fall hard. Giving too much fucks is my problem. Bruises, cuts and scars. I don't let you see the good in me. I love and I hate. Trying to live life to the fullest. This is who I am. Infinite x's and o's.
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Wednesday, 25 January 2012 @ 22:59

I want to be the one for you. I want to mean something to you. I want to be the one to make you smile, I want to be the one that you confide in when you feel like falling apart, I want to be the one that pick you up when you feel like you have no reason left to stand, I want to be the one that show you that what I feel is something real. I am finally yours and you're finally mine but this complicated relationship we're having is so complicated 'til I don't feel like we are in a relationship. I care about you, it's just that I don't show it to you because I'm a worthless bitch. You said I'm important to you but why I don't feel like it? Even though you did a lot of things just for me. I don't even know what I really feel towards you. Yes, yes, I love you like a hell lot. But, there's this weird feeling that I have no idea how I can explain it. I'm a horrible girlfriend. I gotta admit that. Sometimes, I just wonder why you still want me, when actually you deserve someone better. But, I guess it's your choice. I want to have a normal relationship with you like the other couples out there but it's so hard to make this work but no matter what happens, I will try to be a better girlfriend for you. I can promise that but I can't promise that I'm gonna be the type of girlfriend that you dream off. I'm sorry for that.

Ah, yes. This is what I truly feel. Sigh. :/