Zeeyqa, Fourteen, Malaysian.
I'm not your Barbie doll. Weird and random. Lovestruk idiot. Broken and fragile. A big mess. Mayday Parade and Simple Plan. Alternative rock. Vampire Diaries and The Orignals, Damon Salvatore and Niklaus Mikaelson. I don't believe in forever. When I fall, I fall hard. Giving too much fucks is my problem. Bruises, cuts and scars. I don't let you see the good in me. I love and I hate. Trying to live life to the fullest. This is who I am. Infinite x's and o's.
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Thursday, 29 December 2011 @ 15:41

Lately, I've been thinking about what I can do. I've been stressing to fall back in love with you. I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through but I can't go on this way, I gotta stop it.

I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people go. They won't stay forever even when they promise not to. People break promises, so that's why I don't expect anything too much whenever someone promises me something. High expectation leads to high disappointment. So, why expect?

I know I made a lot of promises and I couldn't keep them. I'm sorry, but I believe everyone does that, too. People say, don't make promises when you're happy and don't make decisions when you're mad. I remember I made that promise when I was happy, really happy. I was wrong. I know I should not made that promise and I know I haven't break it, yet but sooner or later, I will. I'm so sorry. I really am. I can explain everything but trust me, you will NEVER understand. Even I can't understand myself.

Someone that we have loved with all of our hearts one day can, quite literally, vanish from our lives the next. Not necessarily from death. Not even from rancor. Sometimes simple circumstance can take a best friend, a lover or a partner right out of your hands, never to be seen again. That's sad, but that is life.